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Suicide, damn dpression, and statistics
So as the title of the post would suggest, my mood has not picked up as yet and I am sitting in a pit of despair, otherwise known as by bedroom. I have barely left it in weeks and have been spending my days doing my newly acquired hobby: marathon sleeping. I seem to find it difficult to wake up and have been sleeping into the late afternoon and sometimes into the evening, only surfacing to go outside for a cigarette or if my boyfriend provides me with something to eat, he’s nice like that. I feel totally pathetic to tell the truth, I feel like I’m just being lazy but I genuinely cannot seem to wake up, I’m not sure what’s going on but I think that it might be to do with the sodium valproate. When I spoke to the psychiatrist, he said that it may be reacting with the quietiapine I am already taking and making me sleepy so he reduced the quietapine dose but this has had no effect. Honestly, I am on the verge of stopping taking it, it has got that bad. Read the rest of this entry
Feeling OK
I have been feeling OK mentally for a while now. The lithium seems to be doing its job. My moods have been stable and I have been able to go into work every day without worry.
I have however been exceptionally tired and feeling groggy on most days. This is probably due to my other medications and has left me feeling like not going into work in the mornings. It’s a conundrum because without my medications I wouldn’t be able to function but they leave me tired and weak so it’s a problem. Who knows the answer to this one? I don’t know.
I have also had a second psychotherapy assessment. This went better than the first one but it was still quite awkward, with long silent pauses. Apparently I was “playing it safe” and “refusing to open up”. Who knows what the doc was thinking. She really gets on my nerves: not looking even remotely at me and not saying anything. When the session was over she even refused to lend me her pen to write the next appointment down saying “you need to take responsibility for your appointment” I AM taking responsibility, I’m writing it down so I remember
Oh well, never mind…
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