Steroids and mixed affective episode

So the Crohns attacked.

Been on steroids for 2 weeks and I totally feel like shit. My mood is up and down simultaneously and I don’t know where I am.

I’m scared

I don’t feel safe but I’m scared of going to the hospital because of the way that they treated me last time I was in there. I’m feeling like I just can’t keep going.

I feel I don’t want to do this any more.

Things have gone too far for me.

I can’t see a future